I have now entered a very transitional, new stage of my life and I am not sure how I feel about it.

I have my own place. I have a job that enables me to afford my own place, (still struggling to learn how to budget my money so I do not have to live pay check to pay check). I have enough money to survive on my own, but not enough money to do what I want to do. No, I will not be a nanny forever, that is not what I spent 5 years in college for, but what now? What do I do? I have no idea what to do with myself. I want to move into the next phase, the next step. I want to get married, I want to buy a shitty foreclosed house and spend all my free time fixing it up and making it mine. I want to have a salary. I want to have health insurance. I want to have a reliable car. I want to have kids one day. I want to have a dog. I want to be skinny again. I want to be healthy again. I want my hair to be long. I want a new laptop. I want to have food in my cabinets.

All of this seems to far away, which is fine, maybe I'm impatient. I just feel restless I suppose.

Perhaps I'll just get another tattoo.